Fat Rant

Monday(9/29/08) was weigh-in. It resulted in another pound gained.

Now, I feel there are no more excuses. I hate being fat. I hate getting winded walking up hills. I hate not being able to go to the hot springs this weekend because I am too big for my swimsuit. I hate how pictures of me on horses look. I hate pictures of me, period. What is more is that I hate hating these things.

I can blame anything. My job. My horrible self esteem. My medication. All the stress in my life. However, this all comes down to me and whether I wish to take care of myself. Sure, there is a certain pleasure in eating anything I want. But it is not worth it if it just leaves me feeling horrible afterward.

Today things will change. Today I start over. Sure, Monday may be another gain, but there are many losses to happen in the future. Right now, there are no excuses, no barriers. Just action.